Have you ever gone on an interview and the person clearly does not know how to perform an interview? Well, that happened recently. I went on an interview for a position that I was so excited about. I got to the interview and the person interviewing me was less than inviting. She gave a phony handshake and did not seem authentic. In addition, she was late and did not apologize.
Even though I knew position I was interviewing for, she choose not to reiterate what the position was about and the exact responsibilities that she was looking to be completed. She did not explain what her position was and how if she would be supervising.
I answered the standard interviewing questions and she made rude statements such as educated people like your self believe life will easy for you. That I should have stayed at my last job and paid my dues. What I thought was shocking was I never said anything about my education or explained the reason why i left my last job. I felt extremely judged and realized this was not going to be the best place for me to work. I ended up not getting the position, but was grateful that she decided to pass on me.
Have you every gone on an interview and felt like the person really did not know how to conduct an interview?
Being in graduate school has its ups and downs. I talk more about the ups and not really the downs.
- It is always more expensive than what you think it will be. There is gas, books, printing, faxing, scanning and other expenses. That are not included in tuition.
- You never have enough time to get everything done the right way. I wanted to get all A’s in class, but I realize that would require so much work and that I did not have the time to get A’s in every class.
- Focus on networking and getting internships more than getting A’s in class. Make sure you making getting a great career and not a great job during your masters program. I am in my last year and I realized I need to focus more on career goals and not just on finishing class.
I hope anyone who is reading this takes this into consideration prior to going back to school.
I went to church today. It was really so engaging. I have to force myself to go to church most of the time now a days, but when I get there I never regret going. I always make such amazing realizations about my life at church.
Prior to church and for the past couple of months, I had been feeling bored with church. I would go to church related events and feel so empty. I started really questioning my beliefs. How do I feel about gay marriage? How do I feel about the Ten Commandments? I started really questioning God’s role in my life. When I went to church my pastor told me it is normal to question God and that it was okay. I really needed to hear that.
Have you ever questioned your religious beliefs and God’s role in your life?
In Philippians 4:11, Paul said, “I have learned in whatsoever state I am in therewith to be content.”
I am grateful for the success that I have, but am not content. There is so much more to do. More people to meet, things to learn and explore. I constantly feel the need to improve and top myself. However, I find my self in situations where people will tell me to be grateful for what I have. The issue is I am grateful, but I am not satisfied because there is always more room to grow. Unfortunately , it is hard to communicate that to people without them judging you.There is always someone who is worse off and better off than you are. That is always the response I get. As if it solves the way I feel.
I am the only minority in my business program. ONLY ONE. It was not that way when I first started the program. It was two Asians and me. That has changed people have dropped out or joined other cohorts. I am left as the only minority in my cohort. Yay, me! I am being sarcastic.
All these thoughts ran through my mind when I began to take in the fact that it was only me. Did I have to represent all minorities or specifically Black people? Did I just represent Black women? Did have it easier not being a Black man in graduate school? I decided to not let it bother me and to not focus on those thoughts. I also began to wonder why I was curious about being the only Black and minority in my cohort. I guess what I was experiencing was just what many Black people feel when they are the only one. There is a sense of having to represent that I often have not felt before until then. Of course I try to ignore my feelings, but I also think it is okay to explore why I feel the way that I do.
I survived the first two semesters of graduate school. I had a lot of fear prior to beginning school. Would I do well? Would I be able to fit in? Would I adjust to being back in school? I did fine and exceeded my expectations. However, not with some stress. There were times where I felt overwhelmed and struggled to managed work and school. I definitely could have managed my time better. Going into this Fall semester, I know that there are adjustments I will need to make in order to continue to be a successful graduate student.
I have been praying for purpose for the last several weeks and through my prayers it revealed many things to me. One, is that I keep running away from the things I love to pursue things I like that would provide a stable life. I question if I am taking the path most taken. Embarking on a life where I have a 9 to 5 job, but no time for myself. I am constantly choosing between my true self wants and what is realistic.
Growing up, I was always really ambitious and no one could tell me I couldn’t do something. As I grow older, I found my self doubting if what I want is even realistic. In the past, I never doubted anything. I always had internal faith that I would be successful. Now it just seems so hard to think that way.
The second thing my prayers revealed is that I need to have more faith in the unknown and unseen. I realize faith is the belief in something yet unseen. Sometimes I feel I am working really hard,but do not know what I am working hard towards. I have been praying for more faith and confidence.