Archive | December, 2015

Being grateful is to be content?

29 Dec

 

In Philippians 4:11, Paul said, “I have learned in whatsoever state I am in therewith to be content.”

I am grateful for the success that I have, but am not content. There  is so much more to do. More people to meet, things to learn and explore. I constantly feel the need to improve and top myself. However, I find my self in situations where people will tell me to be grateful for what I have. The issue is I am grateful, but I am not satisfied because there is always more room to grow. Unfortunately , it is hard to communicate that to people without them judging you.There is always someone who is worse off and better off than you are. That is always the response I get. As if it solves the way I feel.

The Only One

29 Dec

only black person

I am the only minority in my business program. ONLY ONE. It was not that way when I first started the program. It was two Asians and me. That has changed people have dropped out or joined other cohorts. I am left as the only minority in my cohort. Yay, me! I am being sarcastic.

All these thoughts ran through my mind when I began to take in the fact that it was only me. Did I have to represent all minorities or specifically Black people? Did I just represent Black women? Did have it easier not being a Black man in graduate school? I decided to not let it bother  me and to not focus on those thoughts. I also began to wonder why I was curious about being the only Black and minority in my cohort. I guess what I was experiencing was just what many Black people feel when they are the only one. There is a sense of having to represent that I often have not felt before until then. Of course I try to ignore my feelings, but I also think it is okay to explore why I feel the way that I do.

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